The Muse Is Out Today
When your natural inspiration is gone, let me inspire you with advice and anecdotes. Or, at least let's commiserate on our writer's block together.
Saturday, October 14, 2023
Publishing My First Children's Picture Book: What I Wish I'd Known Before Starting
Saturday, September 9, 2023
Writing and illustrating My First Children's Picture Book
A few years ago, my oldest child (who was then a toddler) tried to put some shoes on a toy dragon. They didn't fit, and I jokingly said, "Dragons don't wear shoes," and then thought, That's got a catchy beat to it. During some down time, I came up with other mythical beings and the clothes they wouldn't wear and made it into a poem with the idea of creating a children's book.
However, I'm not an artist, and I knew I would have to ask someone to illustrate the book for me, but I wasn't sure I was ready to pay for such a thing. So the poem sat on my phone for months and then years, unpublished.
This year, I felt that I really wanted this book to happen. I don't know why, maybe it's because I wanted to have a new book published but knew that my current WIPs need a lot more work before I would even consider publishing them. I haven't gotten much writing done in the last year (see my writing hiatus post) and it would be nice to feel like an author again. Or maybe having a new baby has made me realize how quickly my first baby has grown and I'm having a mid-life crisis and desperately want all of my projects finished right now. Whatever the case, I was determined to get this children's book published.
The words were all done, the next step was an illustrator. I decided to write down exactly what I wanted in each picture, which ones I wanted to be a single page, which should be double, and got a rough idea of the layout of the book. Next I went to Fiverr to find an illustrator, someone who would do it for fairly cheap but still produce something nice. I found a few people whose style I liked and whose prices were reasonable and contacted one.
I sent a message through Fiverr to this illustrator stating how many illustrations I wanted, how many would be two page and how many would be single page images, and how many characters would be in each image. I asked if he could give me a rough estimate for this and he quickly responded that my idea sounded great and he would love to help me out. He asked me to tell him about my book. I had kind of already explained it was a book about mythical beings and the clothes they do and don't wear, so I thought maybe he wanted an outline of the plot. But my book is more of a list than a story so I told him it was a poem. I also provided the first stanza as an example. Again, he quickly responded and said my idea sounded great, then asked me to send him the text.
This is where I started to feel uneasy. He was asking for a lot of information but still hadn't given me a quote for his services. I had already told him how many illustrations I needed, why did he need the whole text to tell me how much it would cost?
I know this might sound paranoid, but if I handed over my entire book, he could easily ghost me, make illustrations to match the text, and sell it himself. His Fiverr profile indicated he didn't live in the US, and I didn't know anything about him beyond an internet persona, so I had almost no chance at settling things in court if it came to that.
Maybe he was a perfectly nice guy who didn't realize how shady he seemed, but my first question had been how much will you charge me and he still hadn't answered that. So I moved on.
But with my now paranoid brain scanning illustrator profiles, I suddenly felt like everyone on Fiverr could be out to scam me.
My next plan was to reach out to author friends in my writing Facebook groups and see what illustrators they had used, and how they had found them. But the responses I got were for illustrators that mostly seemed to do cover art for books, and they weren't in the cartoony children's style I was hoping for. Someone suggested going to a Facebook group dedicated to children's book illustrators, but warned me that there could be scammers on there.
Aah! They're after me! |
My paranoid brain almost imploded.
At this point I was afraid to ask anyone I didn't know by name to help me out. But I also knew that if I asked a friend I would be entering into a business deal with them. Long story short, I've had several experiences where I had a friend do work for me and I wasn't pleased with the result, but I didn't want to hurt their feelings because I didn't want to hurt our relationship, so I just smiled and paid them and left unhappy. I've sworn off doing business with friends.
So here's where I become a great big hypocrite.
Remember when I wrote that post about AI chatbots and how they can't innovate and we need to mostly consume human-made stuff to show that's what we really want and not get trapped in a world of repetitive stories? It probably sounded like I think AI shouldn't be used to create media, huh?
Well, I decided I would use AI art to illustrate my book.
And, guys, it's actually rather fulfilling.
Here's the thing about AI art generators. They can't innovate, either. I logged into Leonardo.Ai, typed in "Dragon wearing shoes, claws poking out of shoes," and and it gave me a dragon, but no shoes. Because dragons don't wear shoes, obviously.
This happened with almost every one of my pictures. I used two different AI art generators (Leonardo.Ai and Stable Diffusion) and neither knew how to combine the two ideas I would give it. A dragon with shoes? A unicorn with a hat? A fairy with a jacket? How do I do that? Sometimes one or the other didn't even know how to make the mythical creature I asked it for. Neither seem to know what a griffin is.
So then I learned how to use photo editing software. I would get a decent picture of the mythical creature I wanted (usually after several iterations) from one or the other AI art generator, and then get a separate picture of the clothes I wanted it to wear, put them together in Photopea (a free, online version of Photoshop), and do another iteration in the AI art generator so they would look like they belong together. Then there was usually more editing to be done, little tweaks if I found that the AI was focusing on a small error in the picture and making it way more obvious, and back and forth until I got something I liked.
Started with this |
Ended with this |
I learned a ton about the various tools you can use in Stable Diffusion in particular to get what you want. OpenPose helps with posing characters a certain way, Inpainting can redo one small part of the picture (or preserve one part while changing the rest), Reference will create a character that looks like one you provide, and the various Checkpoints can control the style of your image or tell Stable Diffusion how to make certain creatures (without those I wouldn't have been able to make a centaur or a unicorn).
I still would consider myself a novice at this, but I was quite proud of what I was able to do. It was a ton of work, though a real artist would probably say it's much harder to make something original. To that I would say, not if you're completely art impaired like me. I tried to draw a unicorn. Just... just look at it, guys.
I didn't bother with ears or eyes. I knew it was a lost cause |
AI art let me create something I never could have done on my own, and although I know I didn't technically make those illustrations, I put in enough work editing and tweaking to feel like I did.
So, maybe I'm not totally a hypocrite?
Next time, I'll tell you about the next part of my publishing journey: formatting.
Also, please make sure to order a copy of the book on Amazon, available Sep 18!
Tuesday, June 20, 2023
Boredom as a Writing Tool
I heard this quote a few years ago about how kids need to let themselves be bored because it's in those moments where they're not being entertained that they create things, and something like a question about how many authors, music composers, artists, and inventors will we miss out on because the rising generation doesn't let themselves get bored. I went searching for this quote and, while I didn't find exactly the one I was looking for, it turns out a lot of people have said similar things.
In Nicholas Kardaras's book, Glow Kids: How Screen Addiction Is Hijacking Our Kids -- And How to Break the Trance, he says, “If you really want a child to thrive and blossom, lose the screens for the first few years of their lives[...] Most importantly, let them experience boredom; there is nothing healthier for a child than to learn how to use their own interior resources to work through the challenges of being bored. This then acts as the fertile ground for developing their powers of observation, cultivating patience and developing an active imagination-- the most developmentally and neurosynaptically important skill that they can learn.”
This child is about to do something awesome |
When I was little we sometimes called TV the one-eyed monster. I think that monster is smaller now. |
So I tried to cut back a little on the electronics. At least a few times a day, if I had a moment of quiet, I let the quiet remain and I let myself be alone with my thoughts.
Wednesday, June 7, 2023
Will ChatGPT Take My Job?
When I was young, if someone mentioned artificial intelligence, people thought of this:
this:
or this:
People were scared of any mention of AI and robots because they immediately imagined these things taking over the world and overthrowing humanity.
Who knew artificial intelligence would actually look a lot more like this:
this:
or even this:
That last one is a from a chat with ChatGPT, a natural language processing (NLP) AI Chatbot, and some people are just as afraid of it and other generative artificial intelligence as they once were about evil robots.
You've probably heard that AI Chatbots like ChatGPT will eventually take your job. And as a writer, they are particularly worrisome because they can write anything you tell them to, including entire novels and screenplays. The implication is that someday, we won't need human writers for written media at all, and paid human writers will be pushed out of the market for the much cheaper computerized version.
So am I worried ChatGPT will take my job?
My initial response is no. Chatbots are an excellent tool. Look how my simple question above was answered in seconds by ChatGPT, meaning I didn't have to search through Google to find every possible example of AI we use on a daily basis, or even open up an article to see if it had what I was looking for. Chatbots are also useful for writing code, as they can immediately give you the code you need in the language you want for a specific task. And, yes, they can get you started on writing, and even help you brainstorm ideas.
But innovators they are not.
Everything coming out of artificial intelligence has first been put there by humans. The way Chatbots work is by looking at what already exists, finding patterns, and then spitting out text based on those patterns. A Chatbot cannot come up with a new story, it can only tell you stories based on stories that have come before. You might argue that's what all stories are, just reusing and rehashing old tropes, putting twists on genres that already exist.
But that's the thing. Humans can surprise us with those twists. Humans make new stories by taking well-known archetypes and turning them on their heads. A Chatbot doesn't know how to do that. They can only look at what came before and repeat it. Only a human can look at what came before and change it.
So none the stories and novels and screenplays that come out of Chatbots are going to be innovative. At some point, without new input, all of these stories will be the same. Sure, some people don't mind that, but I think for the most part people will prefer to be surprised by human tales.
With that said, there is the smallest part of me that worries what will happen if that percentage of people who prefer innovation is lower than I think. If the majority of humanity don't mind consuming the same stories and tropes and archetypes again and again, especially if the cost is low, then eventually human writers probably will give up and use AI to make their books as well. And then all our media will be a boring, beige, barely entertaining pool of repetition.
So here's my call to action. If you don't want that happening, you need to send a message to the people who produce media. Let them know that you prefer to be surprised. Read and consume mostly human-generated media that is innovative and new, and they will get the hint. That's not to say all AI-generated media should be avoided at all costs, but money talks, and if the money is leaning in a certain direction, that's the direction producers will lean toward as well.
Meanwhile, as a writer, I still think ChatGPT can be a good tool to get you started. If you are stuck, or don't know what to do next, a Chatbot can write a few paragraphs for you and you can either edit that or take a few ideas from it. ChatGPT can help you do research on topics you're writing about. Try it out and see how it can help you. But remember, what it spits out is only as good as what humanity has already given it, and, well, sometimes humanity is dumb. Also, it can't reliably give you sources for what it tells you. So, take whatever it says with a grain of salt.
Thursday, May 18, 2023
My Writing Hiatus
Saturday, April 24, 2021
Another one bites the dust!
I wrote a fight scene this week. I hate fight scenes. You mught think this is a bit of a problem in the fantasy genre, which often has battles and such, and the answer is yes, it is definitely a struggle for me. I know fight scenes are necessary. Action is exciting and can keep a reader interested in between dialogue and diplomacy that also has to happen.
When I was working on the second or third draft of my novel, Scripted, my Honors Thesis advisor told me I should cut out anything that didn't drive the plot along. He also said I needed to trim down scenes where there wasn't any action. I had a battle scene that I realized didn't really do anything for the plot, but I had already sent him my latest draft with this chapter in it. I fully expected him to tell me to cut it. Insteas he sent it back with the comment, "Yes! Action! This is great!" Something like that.
So action is important. And who doesn't like a good fight scene? My problem is the choreography. You don't want a fight to end too quickly. If someone gets knocked out or wins too soon, it can be a let down. However, if I let things get out of hand, sometimes I can't find my way out of a fight and it ends lamely. Like someone tripping over a rock lame.
The mechanics of fights can be difficult, too, especially if weapons are involved. The chapter I wrote this week did not have weapons, but I still struggled even knowing where to start.
So here's what I did: first, I sat on it. I let some ideas come and go as I pondered some interesting things that could happen in the fight. I did zero writing that day, I just thought.
The next day, I typed up some of the best ideas from the day before, including the way I wanted the fight to end. That way I could at least try to wrap things up in a way that led to that ending.
The next day I still was not feeling excited about writing the scene but I made myself write at least one paragraph.
And stuff actually started flowing. I incorporated a few of the ideas I had writtwn previously, and got about half-way through the chapter. The next day, I finished it, with the ending I had planned. A few things got changed to make it flow better, and then it was done.
I can't tell you how good it feels to be done with that chapter! I don't want to say I dread action scenes, they're just not the easiest thing for me to write. Having a plan can help, though.
What are some of your most difficult scenes to write? What helps you get them done?