I originally came here to review my goals from last year and write my new goals, and already I'm nervous. Here we go!
The Muse Is Out Today
When your natural inspiration is gone, let me inspire you with advice and anecdotes. Or, at least let's commiserate on our writer's block together.
Wednesday, December 31, 2025
Reflecting on 2025
I originally came here to review my goals from last year and write my new goals, and already I'm nervous. Here we go!
Tuesday, December 31, 2024
My Writing Journey 2024
I wanted to take a moment to reflect on everything I've done as a writer over the past year as it comes to a close. And then, I'll talk about some of my goals for 2025.
The biggest thing I did this year was publish a new book: A Thousand Times More Fair. I actually started writing this in November of 2023 as a sort of NaNoWriMo that wasn't really a NaNoWriMo. I knew I wouldn't be able to do 50,000 words in a month, but I tried to write every day that month and I got about halfway done with it. Over the next few months I finished the first draft, but then had to take a break from writing because I had a cyst on my wrist that caused me some pain and I had to get it removed.
I wasn't able to type for about a month, and then I only got in a few weeks of typing before I had new pain and what felt like another cyst starting in the same wrist. After taking another break to try to rest and heal, I decided I needed to make my typing posture a priority to stop this from happening again. Who would have thought all those computer lab lessons on keeping your wrists off the table would actually come in handy? Since then, I haven't had any more pain or problems and I've been able to type and write consistently.
Around August I decided I was ready for beta readers, and I realized how difficult it is to find good beta readers and get feedback from them! I am a member of several Facebook groups dedicated to helping authors find beta readers, and I only got two or three people who committed to helping me after posting in all of them. And after a month of waiting for them to finish writing, I contacted them a few days before the agreed upon completion date and one of them said they'd forgotten, one said they would have it done in time (and then never got the feedback to me despite me asking every day for a week), and the other got about ten chapters in and then got busy.
I finally got some good feedback after turning to friends and family and with that I was able to write and edit the final draft.
From that experience, I learned to always ask people to edit on Google Docs when possible, because you can see their progress and even if they only get part of the way done, at least you'll get to see the partial edit. I have no idea if the person who said they were almost done and only needed a few more days was telling me the truth and if somewhere there's a fully marked up manuscript that they simply never sent to me. The person who only got to chapter 10 at least used Google Docs so I had suggestions for the first ten chapters.
I also learned that, annoying as it is, I have to follow up with people multiple times before the agreed upon completion date to make sure they are making progress and haven't forgotten.
While waiting for feedback, I made a cover for the book and was fairly pleased with the result. The main thing I learned while making that is, Amazon will always print pictures to be way darker than they look on your screen and you should make it brighter than you want with less contrast than you think it will need.
I'm quite proud of the book. I published it on Black Friday, a little over a year after I started writing it, and that has been very motivating to try to write and publish another book within a year. I'm currently working on a new novel, which I will reveal more about later.
One thing I haven't been great at, but am trying to do better, is having a social media presence. I won't post the video here because it does swear quite a bit, but there's this author on YouTube, Liz Shipton, who does a lot of videos about male writers vs female writers, and she has a video about becoming an author and all the things you have to do, and of course the final thing to become an author is make a bunch of [stupid] videos for the internet. As an indie author, making a bunch of videos and social media posts to try to stay relevant and drum up business for yourself is essential, but is so much work when all you really want to do is WRITE! I'm terrible at it, and I did try harder in November during the lead up to the release date of A Thousand Times More Fair to post every day or at least every week on Facebook, but the thing is, I'm a stay at home mom with only about one to two hours of free time a day. So, for one to two hours, I must choose between writing, posting on social media, reading, watching a show, playing computer games, and exercising. The rest of the day I am taking care of kids or sleeping.
Maybe one day I can be a full-time indie author who can dedicate herself to posting regularly, but for now, I'm content to write books and have a small following of mostly friends and family and still have time for the other things I want to do.
Still, my other author friends have inspired me to try a little harder this year to post more regularly, so I'll do what I can to blog once or twice a month, and maybe throw a post on Facebook once a week. The blogs count as a Facebook post, btw.
Which brings me to my goals for the year:
Finish writing and publishing untitled book by October.
Start sequel to untitled book (Ooooo! A series?!!!)
Post on Facebook once a week, including a blog post once or twice a month.
Update my author website (it still doesn't have A Thousand Times More Fair on there!)
Run a marketing campaign for A Thousand Times More Fair a week before March 21, 2025 (ahem, if you keep up with movie release dates you'll know why).
Do better at following up with beta readers.
I look forward to another year of growing as an author. What did you do this year to take a step forward in your writing journey?
Monday, November 18, 2024
A Note From The Author
I wrote an author's note for my newest book, A Thousand Times More Fair, about what inspired me to write it. I felt that it was a little too preachy to put into the book, and that it was too long for anyone to enjoy reading after finishing the story. I like quick resolutions and this would drag things out, even if it was just a note added after the final chapter. So I didn't include it.
But I still wanted to share it. This book means a lot to me, and I want you to know why.
A Note from the Author
When I was a girl, I hated my eyebrows. They were far too thick. Everyone else had pencil thin eyebrows. Literally. People would pluck their eyebrows until they were nonexistent and then have to draw them back in.
I told my mother I wanted to pluck my eyebrows and she
wouldn't let me. She said I had beautiful eyebrows, and if I plucked or shaved
them they might not grow back right. She told me about actresses from old
movies that had thick eyebrows that were considered gorgeous in their day. I
didn't care about their day. I cared about my day and how everyone else looked
right then.
It wasn't just eyebrows. I didn't like my body shape. All
the celebrities seemed to have absolutely flat stomachs. I had this bulge in
the front part of my tummy. My mom said it was normal. It wasn't until I saw
Nani in Lilo and Stitch rocking a tummy bulge that I believed her.
I also disliked how light my skin was. I couldn't seem to
tan. My cousin (who had beautiful olive skin) said in the olden days my fair
complexion would be the envy of all the ladies. Again, I didn't care about the
olden days. How did that help me right then?
As I progressed through my teenage years, however, I started
to dislike how my friends talked about their own bodies. They were so
beautiful, and they nitpicked about things that I didn't even notice. Who cares
about your acne? You have the facial features of a Roman goddess! You think
you're fat? Your body is a perfect hourglass shape! What do you mean you hate
your frizzy hair? I would kill for curls like that! I realized, if their
insecurities sounded ridiculous to me, maybe mine sounded the same way to them.
Slowly, I saw myself the way my mother saw me. She was always saying I was beautiful. Maybe she was right. Maybe I had been told for so long by the rest of the world what beauty should be, I had been blinded to the beauty staring back at me in the mirror.
I stopped calling myself fat. I stopped complaining about my skin and my
eyebrows. I even accepted compliments. It felt good.
And then, when I reached adulthood, something weird happened. Everyone changed their minds about what was beautiful. Suddenly, curves were all the rage, and it's hard to have curves when you have zero fat on your body. Freckles were cool, and those don't tend to show up when you tan. And thick eyebrows were in. By then, I no longer cared what the rest of the world said was beautiful. But somehow, I had become a standard for beauty. I hadn't changed myself at all. It was the world that had changed.
If that's how flimsy the standard of beauty is, how quickly
fads can change, what is the point of trying to adhere to them? Why not simply
declare that we are gorgeous as we are, and then wait for the rest of society
to agree?
I wrote A Thousand Times More Fair because I want every woman to understand that they don’t have to fit a certain mold to be beautiful. I chose Snow White as my protagonist because of what she represents. The Western world knows her as the fairest of them all. What does that really mean, though? I hope as you read this book, you’ll realize the answer is more subjective than you thought.
A Thousand Times More Fair will be available on Amazon November 29, 2024! Preorder the ebook now.
Saturday, October 14, 2023
Publishing My First Children's Picture Book: What I Wish I'd Known Before Starting
Saturday, September 9, 2023
Writing and illustrating My First Children's Picture Book
A few years ago, my oldest child (who was then a toddler) tried to put some shoes on a toy dragon. They didn't fit, and I jokingly said, "Dragons don't wear shoes," and then thought, That's got a catchy beat to it. During some down time, I came up with other mythical beings and the clothes they wouldn't wear and made it into a poem with the idea of creating a children's book.
However, I'm not an artist, and I knew I would have to ask someone to illustrate the book for me, but I wasn't sure I was ready to pay for such a thing. So the poem sat on my phone for months and then years, unpublished.
This year, I felt that I really wanted this book to happen. I don't know why, maybe it's because I wanted to have a new book published but knew that my current WIPs need a lot more work before I would even consider publishing them. I haven't gotten much writing done in the last year (see my writing hiatus post) and it would be nice to feel like an author again. Or maybe having a new baby has made me realize how quickly my first baby has grown and I'm having a mid-life crisis and desperately want all of my projects finished right now. Whatever the case, I was determined to get this children's book published.
The words were all done, the next step was an illustrator. I decided to write down exactly what I wanted in each picture, which ones I wanted to be a single page, which should be double, and got a rough idea of the layout of the book. Next I went to Fiverr to find an illustrator, someone who would do it for fairly cheap but still produce something nice. I found a few people whose style I liked and whose prices were reasonable and contacted one.
I sent a message through Fiverr to this illustrator stating how many illustrations I wanted, how many would be two page and how many would be single page images, and how many characters would be in each image. I asked if he could give me a rough estimate for this and he quickly responded that my idea sounded great and he would love to help me out. He asked me to tell him about my book. I had kind of already explained it was a book about mythical beings and the clothes they do and don't wear, so I thought maybe he wanted an outline of the plot. But my book is more of a list than a story so I told him it was a poem. I also provided the first stanza as an example. Again, he quickly responded and said my idea sounded great, then asked me to send him the text.
This is where I started to feel uneasy. He was asking for a lot of information but still hadn't given me a quote for his services. I had already told him how many illustrations I needed, why did he need the whole text to tell me how much it would cost?
I know this might sound paranoid, but if I handed over my entire book, he could easily ghost me, make illustrations to match the text, and sell it himself. His Fiverr profile indicated he didn't live in the US, and I didn't know anything about him beyond an internet persona, so I had almost no chance at settling things in court if it came to that.
Maybe he was a perfectly nice guy who didn't realize how shady he seemed, but my first question had been how much will you charge me and he still hadn't answered that. So I moved on.
But with my now paranoid brain scanning illustrator profiles, I suddenly felt like everyone on Fiverr could be out to scam me.
My next plan was to reach out to author friends in my writing Facebook groups and see what illustrators they had used, and how they had found them. But the responses I got were for illustrators that mostly seemed to do cover art for books, and they weren't in the cartoony children's style I was hoping for. Someone suggested going to a Facebook group dedicated to children's book illustrators, but warned me that there could be scammers on there.
| Aah! They're after me! |
My paranoid brain almost imploded.
At this point I was afraid to ask anyone I didn't know by name to help me out. But I also knew that if I asked a friend I would be entering into a business deal with them. Long story short, I've had several experiences where I had a friend do work for me and I wasn't pleased with the result, but I didn't want to hurt their feelings because I didn't want to hurt our relationship, so I just smiled and paid them and left unhappy. I've sworn off doing business with friends.
So here's where I become a great big hypocrite.
Remember when I wrote that post about AI chatbots and how they can't innovate and we need to mostly consume human-made stuff to show that's what we really want and not get trapped in a world of repetitive stories? It probably sounded like I think AI shouldn't be used to create media, huh?
Well, I decided I would use AI art to illustrate my book.
And, guys, it's actually rather fulfilling.
Here's the thing about AI art generators. They can't innovate, either. I logged into Leonardo.Ai, typed in "Dragon wearing shoes, claws poking out of shoes," and and it gave me a dragon, but no shoes. Because dragons don't wear shoes, obviously.
This happened with almost every one of my pictures. I used two different AI art generators (Leonardo.Ai and Stable Diffusion) and neither knew how to combine the two ideas I would give it. A dragon with shoes? A unicorn with a hat? A fairy with a jacket? How do I do that? Sometimes one or the other didn't even know how to make the mythical creature I asked it for. Neither seem to know what a griffin is.
So then I learned how to use photo editing software. I would get a decent picture of the mythical creature I wanted (usually after several iterations) from one or the other AI art generator, and then get a separate picture of the clothes I wanted it to wear, put them together in Photopea (a free, online version of Photoshop), and do another iteration in the AI art generator so they would look like they belong together. Then there was usually more editing to be done, little tweaks if I found that the AI was focusing on a small error in the picture and making it way more obvious, and back and forth until I got something I liked.
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| Started with this |
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| Ended with this |
I learned a ton about the various tools you can use in Stable Diffusion in particular to get what you want. OpenPose helps with posing characters a certain way, Inpainting can redo one small part of the picture (or preserve one part while changing the rest), Reference will create a character that looks like one you provide, and the various Checkpoints can control the style of your image or tell Stable Diffusion how to make certain creatures (without those I wouldn't have been able to make a centaur or a unicorn).
I still would consider myself a novice at this, but I was quite proud of what I was able to do. It was a ton of work, though a real artist would probably say it's much harder to make something original. To that I would say, not if you're completely art impaired like me. I tried to draw a unicorn. Just... just look at it, guys.
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| I didn't bother with ears or eyes. I knew it was a lost cause |
AI art let me create something I never could have done on my own, and although I know I didn't technically make those illustrations, I put in enough work editing and tweaking to feel like I did.
So, maybe I'm not totally a hypocrite?
Next time, I'll tell you about the next part of my publishing journey: formatting.
Also, please make sure to order a copy of the book on Amazon, available Sep 18!
Tuesday, June 20, 2023
Boredom as a Writing Tool
I heard this quote a few years ago about how kids need to let themselves be bored because it's in those moments where they're not being entertained that they create things, and something like a question about how many authors, music composers, artists, and inventors will we miss out on because the rising generation doesn't let themselves get bored. I went searching for this quote and, while I didn't find exactly the one I was looking for, it turns out a lot of people have said similar things.
In Nicholas Kardaras's book, Glow Kids: How Screen Addiction Is Hijacking Our Kids -- And How to Break the Trance, he says, “If you really want a child to thrive and blossom, lose the screens for the first few years of their lives[...] Most importantly, let them experience boredom; there is nothing healthier for a child than to learn how to use their own interior resources to work through the challenges of being bored. This then acts as the fertile ground for developing their powers of observation, cultivating patience and developing an active imagination-- the most developmentally and neurosynaptically important skill that they can learn.”
| This child is about to do something awesome |
| When I was little we sometimes called TV the one-eyed monster. I think that monster is smaller now. |
So I tried to cut back a little on the electronics. At least a few times a day, if I had a moment of quiet, I let the quiet remain and I let myself be alone with my thoughts.
Wednesday, June 7, 2023
Will ChatGPT Take My Job?
When I was young, if someone mentioned artificial intelligence, people thought of this:
this:
or this:
People were scared of any mention of AI and robots because they immediately imagined these things taking over the world and overthrowing humanity.
Who knew artificial intelligence would actually look a lot more like this:
this:
or even this:
That last one is a from a chat with ChatGPT, a natural language processing (NLP) AI Chatbot, and some people are just as afraid of it and other generative artificial intelligence as they once were about evil robots.
You've probably heard that AI Chatbots like ChatGPT will eventually take your job. And as a writer, they are particularly worrisome because they can write anything you tell them to, including entire novels and screenplays. The implication is that someday, we won't need human writers for written media at all, and paid human writers will be pushed out of the market for the much cheaper computerized version.
So am I worried ChatGPT will take my job?
My initial response is no. Chatbots are an excellent tool. Look how my simple question above was answered in seconds by ChatGPT, meaning I didn't have to search through Google to find every possible example of AI we use on a daily basis, or even open up an article to see if it had what I was looking for. Chatbots are also useful for writing code, as they can immediately give you the code you need in the language you want for a specific task. And, yes, they can get you started on writing, and even help you brainstorm ideas.
But innovators they are not.
Everything coming out of artificial intelligence has first been put there by humans. The way Chatbots work is by looking at what already exists, finding patterns, and then spitting out text based on those patterns. A Chatbot cannot come up with a new story, it can only tell you stories based on stories that have come before. You might argue that's what all stories are, just reusing and rehashing old tropes, putting twists on genres that already exist.
But that's the thing. Humans can surprise us with those twists. Humans make new stories by taking well-known archetypes and turning them on their heads. A Chatbot doesn't know how to do that. They can only look at what came before and repeat it. Only a human can look at what came before and change it.
So none the stories and novels and screenplays that come out of Chatbots are going to be innovative. At some point, without new input, all of these stories will be the same. Sure, some people don't mind that, but I think for the most part people will prefer to be surprised by human tales.
With that said, there is the smallest part of me that worries what will happen if that percentage of people who prefer innovation is lower than I think. If the majority of humanity don't mind consuming the same stories and tropes and archetypes again and again, especially if the cost is low, then eventually human writers probably will give up and use AI to make their books as well. And then all our media will be a boring, beige, barely entertaining pool of repetition.
So here's my call to action. If you don't want that happening, you need to send a message to the people who produce media. Let them know that you prefer to be surprised. Read and consume mostly human-generated media that is innovative and new, and they will get the hint. That's not to say all AI-generated media should be avoided at all costs, but money talks, and if the money is leaning in a certain direction, that's the direction producers will lean toward as well.
Meanwhile, as a writer, I still think ChatGPT can be a good tool to get you started. If you are stuck, or don't know what to do next, a Chatbot can write a few paragraphs for you and you can either edit that or take a few ideas from it. ChatGPT can help you do research on topics you're writing about. Try it out and see how it can help you. But remember, what it spits out is only as good as what humanity has already given it, and, well, sometimes humanity is dumb. Also, it can't reliably give you sources for what it tells you. So, take whatever it says with a grain of salt.


